Maybe you can't tell but I sure can!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Soren and Alex Photoshoot
My two little brothers, OK so they're not so little. And yes. They are my half brothers.
On Tuesday they are going to a 20 min photo shoot for a movie. The movie has to put together their own magazine to put in the movie and my brother are some of the lucky ones who get the opportunity. For 20 minutes they get $200!
My mom asked me to take some pictures of the boys because they are going to start auditioning for movies and such. And need some pictures to put in their portfolio. Why my mom asked me I haven't a clue. I'm no professional. But we sure had fun!
On Tuesday they are going to a 20 min photo shoot for a movie. The movie has to put together their own magazine to put in the movie and my brother are some of the lucky ones who get the opportunity. For 20 minutes they get $200!
My mom asked me to take some pictures of the boys because they are going to start auditioning for movies and such. And need some pictures to put in their portfolio. Why my mom asked me I haven't a clue. I'm no professional. But we sure had fun!
Friday, January 8, 2010
Happy New Years
New Years this year was so much fun. For once we actually did something instead of be "old" and end our night at 10, because we can't keep our eyes open for the life of us. We got invited to go up to Alan's sister's in West Haven for the new years and have a partay! Alan's parents reserved a hotel for us so we stayed in it with them. Much better than driving home at midnight! It was a super nice hotel, but I guess anything is nice to us because we don't get out much...
The whole night was full of food an Beatles Rock Band. And yes, I was very disappointed by it. They didn't have the classic songs on it like, "Hey Jude", But we did have fun. 6 hours of Beatles Rock Band fun. Even his mom got into it. She knew every single word.
Although I was pretty sick for most the night, I still had one of the best New Years I've had in a long time. Maybe ever. I still missed my mom and step dad's annual Gumbo night for New Years. Maybe next year!
Monday, January 4, 2010
Thoughts thus far in 2009
I've had alot on my mind lately. Seems like so much is starting to go on in my life.
1. This week Alan starts the second block of Police Academy and I'm a little worried this time around. No, not for him. Yes, for me. I am worried I won't be able to handle being pregnant and having a young baby almost a toddler and a 3 year old. I'm so sick most mornings that I cannu=323+%29966%298+3%29WSNRCG%3D3232%282+8+%3B%3B69nu0mrj.jpeg)
barely get off the couch. Yet, I still seem to survive knowing Alan's will be home within a few short hours to relieve me. Starting Wednesday, that will be no more. For only 5 months, but that's most of this pregnancy.
The frustrating part is that is get no sympathy from mom's (certain moms I will not mention, not my own though) They say that they went through much worse and they survived. That it's nothing what I'm going through. This makes me beyond irritated. I try not to complain but would like a little help sometimes. Mom's have it rough I think and every situation is different. No one can compare each other.
Yes, I am surviving. Without help. But who said this was fun at all. Little do you know I have to say a little prayer or shed a little tear cause its too much to handle. Thanks heavens I have u husband that comes home every night that cares about me more than anyone ever has. That loves me so much. For that I cannot not complain.
2. My beautiful daughter Kymber. Lately I've been thinking about my past and how she came into the world. Maybe I watch a little too much TV on adoption stories and drama sitcoms and maybe it's because I'm pregnant. But I have been thinking about my sister who is not married ( however was married for the first kid and is now divorced) and is on her 2nd kid (different dads) and she is only 20 and it has brought up alot of feeling to me comparing both our situations.
I remember talking to her and explaining to her what I went through.
I was not married when I got pregnant with Kymber and I considered adoption when I found out. But I just couldn't seem to do it. Props goes out to those that do because I don't know how they do it. So we decided to keep her. Best thing I ever did. However I wasn't supposed to really tell anyone and I felt like I was one big secret and almost felt ashamed at some point because I was having her out of wed lock and not married let alone sealed like I had always planned on since I was a kid. I wanted to get married but knew that wasn't the answer to the problems we were having. Good things we didn't because it ended up not working out in the end. Which was for the best I'm sure.
I ended up getting married and sealed to Alan and that was the second best thing I ever did. He helped get through alot of the stuff I was going through and encouraged me to prepared to get sealed. 6 months later we finally were. What a blessing it was. Soon after we got married I got pregnant with our son Xander. It was such a different feeling and I was actually able to announce it from the roof tops instead of having to keep my lips sealed.
Now my point is that every single day I look at Xander and then at Kymber and it breaks my heart to know that Xander was born under the covenant and Kymber wasn't. And she prob wont ever be able to be sealed to us. I feel like I took that away from her. That, she did NOT deserve by any means.
I hate everything she is going through and the confusion she has from getting to now her real dad now and spending time with his family. They are good people and she is one tough and zocial little girl. I just think she's having a hard time and is starting over in testing our boundaries as parents. I imagine it's hard going back and forth even though I do love his family and respect them fully.
I guess I blame myself for it all but know that I must get over it in order to cope.
3. My friends. New and old. I am so grateful for the friends I've acquired this year. Reuniting with old ones and meeting new ones. I do believe that it has been one of the best things for me this past year. I finally let myself get out of the mommy zone and I have never been with such a sweet and caring group of girls. I do love like like sisters. Maybe it is because we are now older and out of high school and are married with kids that makes it seems like it means a whole lot more. Sure, there is drama but very little and for that I am gratefull. So this one goes out to those girls. Yes, all of you who have been there for me through this past year. I'm looking to a whole new year of new and exciting adventures.
1. This week Alan starts the second block of Police Academy and I'm a little worried this time around. No, not for him. Yes, for me. I am worried I won't be able to handle being pregnant and having a young baby almost a toddler and a 3 year old. I'm so sick most mornings that I can
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barely get off the couch. Yet, I still seem to survive knowing Alan's will be home within a few short hours to relieve me. Starting Wednesday, that will be no more. For only 5 months, but that's most of this pregnancy.The frustrating part is that is get no sympathy from mom's (certain moms I will not mention, not my own though) They say that they went through much worse and they survived. That it's nothing what I'm going through. This makes me beyond irritated. I try not to complain but would like a little help sometimes. Mom's have it rough I think and every situation is different. No one can compare each other.
Yes, I am surviving. Without help. But who said this was fun at all. Little do you know I have to say a little prayer or shed a little tear cause its too much to handle. Thanks heavens I have u husband that comes home every night that cares about me more than anyone ever has. That loves me so much. For that I cannot not complain.
2. My beautiful daughter Kymber. Lately I've been thinking about my past and how she came into the world. Maybe I watch a little too much TV on adoption stories and drama sitcoms and maybe it's because I'm pregnant. But I have been thinking about my sister who is not married ( however was married for the first kid and is now divorced) and is on her 2nd kid (different dads) and she is only 20 and it has brought up alot of feeling to me comparing both our situations.
I remember talking to her and explaining to her what I went through.
I was not married when I got pregnant with Kymber and I considered adoption when I found out. But I just couldn't seem to do it. Props goes out to those that do because I don't know how they do it. So we decided to keep her. Best thing I ever did. However I wasn't supposed to really tell anyone and I felt like I was one big secret and almost felt ashamed at some point because I was having her out of wed lock and not married let alone sealed like I had always planned on since I was a kid. I wanted to get married but knew that wasn't the answer to the problems we were having. Good things we didn't because it ended up not working out in the end. Which was for the best I'm sure.
I ended up getting married and sealed to Alan and that was the second best thing I ever did. He helped get through alot of the stuff I was going through and encouraged me to prepared to get sealed. 6 months later we finally were. What a blessing it was. Soon after we got married I got pregnant with our son Xander. It was such a different feeling and I was actually able to announce it from the roof tops instead of having to keep my lips sealed.
Now my point is that every single day I look at Xander and then at Kymber and it breaks my heart to know that Xander was born under the covenant and Kymber wasn't. And she prob wont ever be able to be sealed to us. I feel like I took that away from her. That, she did NOT deserve by any means.
I hate everything she is going through and the confusion she has from getting to now her real dad now and spending time with his family. They are good people and she is one tough and zocial little girl. I just think she's having a hard time and is starting over in testing our boundaries as parents. I imagine it's hard going back and forth even though I do love his family and respect them fully.
I guess I blame myself for it all but know that I must get over it in order to cope.
3. My friends. New and old. I am so grateful for the friends I've acquired this year. Reuniting with old ones and meeting new ones. I do believe that it has been one of the best things for me this past year. I finally let myself get out of the mommy zone and I have never been with such a sweet and caring group of girls. I do love like like sisters. Maybe it is because we are now older and out of high school and are married with kids that makes it seems like it means a whole lot more. Sure, there is drama but very little and for that I am gratefull. So this one goes out to those girls. Yes, all of you who have been there for me through this past year. I'm looking to a whole new year of new and exciting adventures.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
9 weeks and a happy 23rd birthday to myself
Today was my first official Doctors appointment for this pregnancy. I have changed doctors again because my NP for Xander moved to a nurse midwife clinic. I decided to stick with the OB that delivered Xander. I'm not moving offices. I refuse.
My mom had to drop me off so I could meet Alan there due to the weather being so terrible! Well I got weighed and now weigh 122 lbs. I'm not complaining at all. The new nurse and I chatted for forever it seemed. She's cute. I really like her. The other nurse came in and told me that Dr. Judd was out of the office because they have 9 mom's delivering at the hospital. Which if you are a mom you know what happens at the first doctors appointment. Need I say more? So I was actually relieved! So, she said because I have to come in again for him they will give me a peek a boo ultrasound free of charge. yay! So in 7 weeks I find out the gender of this baby! Looks like I came into the office on the right day. And to think I almost rescheduled cause of this weather. Happy Birthday to me!
We got called back for my check up ultrasound after having the problems with going into the ER. It looks like I am still on light duty. No nothing. NOTHING! Go ahead read into it. WE CAN"T DO A DARN THING!
Now this is a bad U/S picture because she focused on the baby and it doesn't look much like one yet. But if you look to the left you can see a dark spot. Like a deflated balloon. If she went over more you could see it get bigger but we didnt get a print out of that one. Thats what they think is another sack and the reason I have to lay low because Im still at risk for a miscarriage. Also they backed my due date 5 days so my new one is August 4. BUMMER!!!!!
Now as for my birthday we get to have pizza (because I DO NOT WANT TO COOK! and cake and icecream. Mint chocolate chip!) And my movie of choice.
My mom had to drop me off so I could meet Alan there due to the weather being so terrible! Well I got weighed and now weigh 122 lbs. I'm not complaining at all. The new nurse and I chatted for forever it seemed. She's cute. I really like her. The other nurse came in and told me that Dr. Judd was out of the office because they have 9 mom's delivering at the hospital. Which if you are a mom you know what happens at the first doctors appointment. Need I say more? So I was actually relieved! So, she said because I have to come in again for him they will give me a peek a boo ultrasound free of charge. yay! So in 7 weeks I find out the gender of this baby! Looks like I came into the office on the right day. And to think I almost rescheduled cause of this weather. Happy Birthday to me!
We got called back for my check up ultrasound after having the problems with going into the ER. It looks like I am still on light duty. No nothing. NOTHING! Go ahead read into it. WE CAN"T DO A DARN THING!
Now this is a bad U/S picture because she focused on the baby and it doesn't look much like one yet. But if you look to the left you can see a dark spot. Like a deflated balloon. If she went over more you could see it get bigger but we didnt get a print out of that one. Thats what they think is another sack and the reason I have to lay low because Im still at risk for a miscarriage. Also they backed my due date 5 days so my new one is August 4. BUMMER!!!!!
Now as for my birthday we get to have pizza (because I DO NOT WANT TO COOK! and cake and icecream. Mint chocolate chip!) And my movie of choice.
Christmas!!!!
Christmas this year was interesting to say the least. We had our annual Rosenbaum's Saturday before Christmas get together at my aunts studio. We were forced to announce our little pregnancy. tradition to our family for everyone to say whats new and who is having a baby or whatnot. There are usually a few. Wasn't it last year we announced that we were pregnant with Xander. I swear it was just a bit ago and now I'm on my 3rd. Would someone please tell me why I got so embarrassed when Alan announced it? maybe it was the fact that he said, "Xander just turned 7 months old oh and we're expecting, AGAIN!" it must just be me because they are are very excited and happy for us.
This year we went to Jumping Jacks with Alan's family on Christmas EVE. It's a starting tradition from last year and the kids LOVE it! My kids do at least. And by kids I mean Alan and Kymber!
After that we went over to his brother's for a big dinner. My assignment was to make cream pies. So I made a coconut cream, banana cream, and chocolate cream. Yum! We had to leave to make sure we made it home in time for Kymber's dad to come and get her for the night. Such a bummer because I wanted her to wake up the next morning and see her presents. Nature of the beast I guess.
Needless to say when we picked her she wasn't in the best mood. due to not taking naps the past couple days I'm sure...
But the mood lightened when she got to open her gifts...
This year we went to Jumping Jacks with Alan's family on Christmas EVE. It's a starting tradition from last year and the kids LOVE it! My kids do at least. And by kids I mean Alan and Kymber!
After that we went over to his brother's for a big dinner. My assignment was to make cream pies. So I made a coconut cream, banana cream, and chocolate cream. Yum! We had to leave to make sure we made it home in time for Kymber's dad to come and get her for the night. Such a bummer because I wanted her to wake up the next morning and see her presents. Nature of the beast I guess.Needless to say when we picked her she wasn't in the best mood. due to not taking naps the past couple days I'm sure...
But the mood lightened when she got to open her gifts...
Yes, even bubba was excited to open presents...
Saturday, December 19, 2009
A day that I will never forget
It seemed like yesterday, Friday, would be just like any other pregnancy day. Other than the fact that we had an ultrasound scheduled at UVRMC in Provo and a fun ward party later that evening. I was pretty stoked for that. Other than the fact that I had pretty much stayed on the couch for most of the day due to not feeling so great at all. Kind of comes with the territory so I cant complain much ha ha.
Well we went in there at 3 and they finally called us in. Well there is a baby! After 2 weeks of denial I finally saw the baby and knew the days of mornings sickness were not in vain!
I am 7 weeks 6 days along and am due July 31st. (So that means I will be beyond miserable during the summer. Big. Fat. And Pregnant.)
After of course we went home and told everyone the news.
Later that night a few hours later we were almost ready to leave for the Ward Christmas Party (about 5:45 pm) when I noticed I was bleeding, I went to the bathroom and passed a big blood clot. Now if you have ever been pregnant you know that this is NOT good. We gave the kids to my brother Jake and his wife Estefany and they would take them to the party. I was pretty bummed because I wanted to take them to see Santa Clause, but knew that this was important.
We arrived at Payson hospital and they immediately got me in my own little room instead of just a space with a curtain that covers my little area. A perk of being a patient of Gyno? Not to mention the nice LCD flat screen to which we watched bits of Madagascar while we waited.
Finally the doctor came in and told us that chances were that I had lost the baby were pretty good. I was prepared for this one. But it broke my heart because not even 3 hours before we had seen the baby and heard its heartbeat! Nothing can prepare you for it, event though we tried. The ultrasound tech finally came in a wheeled us into the room to get yet another ultrasound.
We would NEVER believe what we saw.
A little baby with a ♥heartbeat. Sigh of relief.
Now...what happened next is beyond me and I am still in shock.
He showed us another part where it looked like it was a completely different sack. Yes. He said I may have miscarried a twin! Holy cow...! He also showed us that the amniotic sack was tearing away from the uterine wall and may be causing the bleeding.
Someone please explain to me how UVRMC could have missed this one. Granted it was the fastest ultrsound I had ever gotten earlier. Will I go there again to get one? I think not. Seems like when the other guy had told us one he was prett confident.
So...I was put on slight bed rest. Told to take it easy. The doctor said that it is still possible I am having a miscarriage and that it is 50/50 I could lose this one. This is not going to be fun. For one, I have a 7 month old who is a mama boy and also a 3 year old who also loves playing with mommy. Did I mention I am a nursery leader?
It will be touch and go for a while but I'm sure Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us. We are so grateful that little ♥ beat is still there. This will forever be a day that I will never forget. The day we gained and lost a baby all within 3 hours of each other. I know the Heavenly Father had a special place for that one in heaven for that one. I'm beyond grateful that I was good enough that He trusted me to help it along the way for that time.
Well we went in there at 3 and they finally called us in. Well there is a baby! After 2 weeks of denial I finally saw the baby and knew the days of mornings sickness were not in vain!
I am 7 weeks 6 days along and am due July 31st. (So that means I will be beyond miserable during the summer. Big. Fat. And Pregnant.)
After of course we went home and told everyone the news.
Later that night a few hours later we were almost ready to leave for the Ward Christmas Party (about 5:45 pm) when I noticed I was bleeding, I went to the bathroom and passed a big blood clot. Now if you have ever been pregnant you know that this is NOT good. We gave the kids to my brother Jake and his wife Estefany and they would take them to the party. I was pretty bummed because I wanted to take them to see Santa Clause, but knew that this was important.
We arrived at Payson hospital and they immediately got me in my own little room instead of just a space with a curtain that covers my little area. A perk of being a patient of Gyno? Not to mention the nice LCD flat screen to which we watched bits of Madagascar while we waited.
Finally the doctor came in and told us that chances were that I had lost the baby were pretty good. I was prepared for this one. But it broke my heart because not even 3 hours before we had seen the baby and heard its heartbeat! Nothing can prepare you for it, event though we tried. The ultrasound tech finally came in a wheeled us into the room to get yet another ultrasound.
We would NEVER believe what we saw.
A little baby with a ♥heartbeat. Sigh of relief.
Now...what happened next is beyond me and I am still in shock.
He showed us another part where it looked like it was a completely different sack. Yes. He said I may have miscarried a twin! Holy cow...! He also showed us that the amniotic sack was tearing away from the uterine wall and may be causing the bleeding.
Someone please explain to me how UVRMC could have missed this one. Granted it was the fastest ultrsound I had ever gotten earlier. Will I go there again to get one? I think not. Seems like when the other guy had told us one he was prett confident.
So...I was put on slight bed rest. Told to take it easy. The doctor said that it is still possible I am having a miscarriage and that it is 50/50 I could lose this one. This is not going to be fun. For one, I have a 7 month old who is a mama boy and also a 3 year old who also loves playing with mommy. Did I mention I am a nursery leader?
It will be touch and go for a while but I'm sure Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us. We are so grateful that little ♥ beat is still there. This will forever be a day that I will never forget. The day we gained and lost a baby all within 3 hours of each other. I know the Heavenly Father had a special place for that one in heaven for that one. I'm beyond grateful that I was good enough that He trusted me to help it along the way for that time.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Let it snow, Let it snow, Let it snow!
I hate snow. HATE IT! Its so cold and it's hard not being able to take a walk outside in the warm sun...Kymber however was so excited for the snow. I need to get her a snow suit so I don't have to worry about her getting cold. Until then,I just put on layer upon layer for her. Still does that trick.
now Kymber loves eating the snow and touching it, but it becomes a different story when her poor hands are stinging from the freezing snow. then it is all the sudden my fault and my problem. She hasn't quite grasped the concept that snow is cold. So wear gloves. To her they just get in the way. You'd think that silly girl would learn....
Yesterday is when the snow really came. To stay. Did I mention I hate the snow?? I decided I took Kymber out while I shoveled the driveway. She helped. Sort of.
now Kymber loves eating the snow and touching it, but it becomes a different story when her poor hands are stinging from the freezing snow. then it is all the sudden my fault and my problem. She hasn't quite grasped the concept that snow is cold. So wear gloves. To her they just get in the way. You'd think that silly girl would learn....
Yesterday is when the snow really came. To stay. Did I mention I hate the snow?? I decided I took Kymber out while I shoveled the driveway. She helped. Sort of.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Dear Santa...
I was so super excited to have Kymber write a letter to Santa this year. She keeps telling me what she wants so I wanted to get it on record because it was such a funny list. Yes, these are Kymber's words exactly. Might I mention how she closes her letter? We have taught her well! And yes everyone those are not Christmas stickers. Kymber insisted on using these ones. Adds character I think!
♥Please excuse my very fast handwriting. I could not keep up with her list!
And baby makes 3!
Yes, I am guessing you are either laughing right now or stunned and do not know what to say. That's pretty much what we're doing.
The past few weeks I haven't been feeling up to par. I can only describe it as blah. Yes. BLAH!
The other day Alan wanted to go to his brothers house so this gave me the opportunity to do a little bit of Christmas shopping at Walmart. Well at the very end I started feeling not right and decided to grab a subway just in case. While I was paying I had that passing out feeling. This is exactly what I felt like with Xander. SO the very next day I took a trip to the dollar store and got 2 pregnancy tests. I did this because I have cried wolf in the past and didn't want to spend the money on those expensive ones just to have it show up negative. I was convinced it would be.
So that Friday night I took one of those tests. TWO SOLID PINK LINES FOLKS. PREGNANT.
Well my baby, yes my 7 month old (Do not laugh), decided to wake me up at 2:30 a.m. and so I gave him a bottle. I didn't want to nurse him just in case I was in fact expecting. And what do ya know, I could not sleep for the life of me. I obviously had things on my mind! I got up and watched some TV and decided to take that second test. Yes people TWO SOLID PINK LINES.
I ended up telling Alan the next day and making plans with my mom to head over to Springville clinic to get one last test done. 3rd times a charm right? Plus I was in a little bit of denial. After my get together with my girlfriends we headed over. I'm guessing you know what happened next. Nurse comes out. "Yup, it was positive!"
So, I do not know when I am due (because I was nursing Xander) and I have to wait till I can get a doctors appointment and probably get an ultrasound done to determine that.
I shall be a mother of two and my kids will be about anywhere from 14-16 months apart. I guess if it's another boy (which we suspect) they will be buddies!
The past few weeks I haven't been feeling up to par. I can only describe it as blah. Yes. BLAH!
The other day Alan wanted to go to his brothers house so this gave me the opportunity to do a little bit of Christmas shopping at Walmart. Well at the very end I started feeling not right and decided to grab a subway just in case. While I was paying I had that passing out feeling. This is exactly what I felt like with Xander. SO the very next day I took a trip to the dollar store and got 2 pregnancy tests. I did this because I have cried wolf in the past and didn't want to spend the money on those expensive ones just to have it show up negative. I was convinced it would be.
So that Friday night I took one of those tests. TWO SOLID PINK LINES FOLKS. PREGNANT.
Well my baby, yes my 7 month old (Do not laugh), decided to wake me up at 2:30 a.m. and so I gave him a bottle. I didn't want to nurse him just in case I was in fact expecting. And what do ya know, I could not sleep for the life of me. I obviously had things on my mind! I got up and watched some TV and decided to take that second test. Yes people TWO SOLID PINK LINES.
I ended up telling Alan the next day and making plans with my mom to head over to Springville clinic to get one last test done. 3rd times a charm right? Plus I was in a little bit of denial. After my get together with my girlfriends we headed over. I'm guessing you know what happened next. Nurse comes out. "Yup, it was positive!"
So, I do not know when I am due (because I was nursing Xander) and I have to wait till I can get a doctors appointment and probably get an ultrasound done to determine that.
I shall be a mother of two and my kids will be about anywhere from 14-16 months apart. I guess if it's another boy (which we suspect) they will be buddies!
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